I don't want to think about what it might be like if I get a negative on a pregnancy test after all of this. But I definitely didn't think I'd have to deal with the reality that we might never get to that point. Last week I went in for an ultrasound and I couldn't believe it. My body hasn't responded quickly enough to the drugs. I felt my throat get tight, I started sweating, and then the flood of tears. But the doctor told me to come back in 2 days and see how things are progressing. When we came back, things weren't great by any stretch of the imagination, but he said in his professional opinion, he'd continue. I was freaking out a bit when I heard the number of eggs I have is similar to that of a 40 year old woman (I'm 32), but the doctor put my worries at ease when he told me my egg quality would be significantly better, and quality is better than quantity.