My husband Nick and I are so excited (and a tad nervous) about expecting #2! Gage (our 2 1/2 year old) is too, I think. I ask him if he wants a brother or a sister and every time he says "SISTER!"
Although I'm 99.9% sure he has no idea what a sister really is. I'm due January 19th which means Gage will be just about 3 (I'm going to start tackling potty training next month which means only 1 child in diapers - yay!).
When I was pregnant with Gage, I was very open about the struggles it took to conceive. I know most of you could care less, and I get that! If that's the case, you don't have to read any further. But after sharing my struggle, I've heard from quite a few women who have either been in the same boat or are going through an uphill battle trying to get pregnant.
It helps knowing you're not alone. I know it sure helped me when I was trying to get pregnant hearing other stories from women who had been there before me. And it helped when I heard the miracle stories of someone getting pregnant. So here's chapter 2 of my struggle for #2.
Nick and I always knew we wanted 2 kids. I figured after having to go through IVF (after trying countless other options), we'd have to go that route again. And then I started feeling nauseous. And then I took a pregnancy test. And then it was positive! How could that be?
After many years of trying and then 2 more years of fertility treatments, how could I have gotten pregnant naturally? Shocked and ecstatic, the doctor confirmed we were expecting.
But then about a week later, heartbreak. I knew something was wrong. I suddenly didn't feel nauseous anymore. And then other telltale symptoms of a miscarriage started. I still get sad when I think about it, but what that pregnancy (as short as it was) gave me was a whole lot of hope.
We continued to hope it would happen again. After about 6 months though, I gave my fertility doc a call. He scheduled some blood tests which would essentially tell me how my egg supply was looking (I'm 35 years old). The way he put it was I have a "yellow light".
A red light would mean you can probably stop trying to conceive because there's little chance of it happening. But he said while I don't have a lot of time left, I have some. More hope!
So we decided to go ahead and try some "first step" fertility treatments again. I went on fertility pills (no injections) and did an IUI. And about a week later the nausea started again - I've never been so happy to feel so crummy in my entire life! And then we found out it worked! I asked the doc how could this happen so easily this time around and he said maybe this month everything just lined up perfectly and also there are some things medicine can't explain.
What I do know is like the first time I got pregnant, God has been there with me. And it's because of Him I'm still pregnant today and able to tell you about it. I'm 13 weeks along so please keep me and this little one in your prayers.
We've had several ultrasounds so far because I'm considered "advanced maternal age" (wow, I feel old - ha!). And every ultrasound has been good. The last one we were able to actually see the fingers. What a relief... and what a miracle!
- Amanda Taylor