I was about to embark on a final journey. We have prayed more prayers than I can count that we would get pregnant. I know God's listening. I believe he's put us in the good hands of one of the best fertility doctors around. I went in to go through my mock transfer, basically a run through of the big day. Ouch. It wasn't supposed to hurt, but it was painful - and that's when he told the nurse, 'we'll give her a valium during the real thing'. I'm okay with that!